Hey Guys and Girls

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Hey everyone ,
its been awhile since my last post , i have been pretty busy anyway to cut a long story short i have started writting again .. well kinda in my spare time
but i think i am going about it wrong and due to my lack of education i would like some tips so if you could please give me some guidence and criticsims
i would be very happy well , heres what i have so far..

As the rain fell on my window i could hear a muffled yelling ,
It was my parents , i tried to go to my happy place but the yelling was
to loud i couldn't concentrate i herd a slap it was silent for a few seconds then they started up again,
as a single tear ran down my cheek i knew i had to get of this place,
the morning came i got ready for school , as i was leaving the house i could feel the tension,
i decided that i wasn't coming home tonight and i would make a break for it and go somewhere new and start fresh,
my dad was watching the television he wouldn't even look at me i didn't understand , i noticed mums lip was cut i knew what had happened
it always ends like this ,
as i was leaving i hugged mum and whispered in her ear "ill miss you" then looked her in the eyes , i think she knew what i was doing but she didn't say a thing,
on my way to school i started to ask myself if they cared if i was gone , i started to convince myself "yeah they will miss me they have to" i said .

The school bell rang for lunch made me depressed the build up of everything , knowing i cant eat anything because i need it for the next few days ,
i managed to scam some food from some old mates i just chucked it in my bag.
3 o'clock came and i meet up with her and we started to walk home she was my best friend in the world we shared a special connection with each other,
she was always there for me and meant the world to me , i spent most of the night with her just hanging out like we always did ,
it started to get late so i told her what i was doing and that she might not ever see me again it hurt to tell her that but it was the truth she was shocked and her eyes started to glaze i didn't know what to do i turned around and ran as fast as i could she screamed my name and started to chase me i was scared and confused i ran to the other side of the road and turned to see her i could see the pain in her face and the tears .. bright lights and a horn was all i heard next
i felt the sky rain her blood onto my face .. i ran to her as fast as i could and cradled her head with her last breath she said " i love you , don't run" i didn't know what to do i started to become overwhelmed with emotions i had never felt like this before , the ambulance and police arrived and wouldn't let them come near her
the two police officers pulled me off her and started to carry me away i managed to wriggle free and ran after the ambulance i couldn't catch it i dropped to my knees and started punching the ground , i felt a strength i had never felt before before my knuckles were to bloody the police officers restrained me..
in the police car i was still feeling this certain strength i was screaming and feeling this incandescent rage .
they took me straight to the mental institution i had time to think about everything but all i could think about was her last words "i love you , dont run"
it was doing my head in what did she mean , dont run from her ? or dont run from my previous life?
i dont know .
For 2 years i have thought about the same thing and with the therapy , they say i am getting better i had a visit form my mum she came in on my 20th birthday i didn't even know i was 20 i didn't even know it was my birthday ... she started to cry when she seen the person i had become so deranged i was far form the person i used to be... 



thats what i have so far not much but i would still like to know what yous think for some reason i feel i am moving on to fast .. and i haven't developed any charreters .. btu please let me know what you think thank you !

--Amazed